Tuesday, April 22, 2014

You know all that sympathy that you feel for an abused child who suffers without a good mom or dad to love and care for them? Well, they don't stay children forever. No one magically becomes an adult the day they turn eighteen. Some people grow up sooner, many grow up later. Some never really do. But just remember that some people in this world are older versions of those same kids we cry for.”

Sunday, April 13, 2014

It’s true that God is a God of love, but obviously, if we believe the Bible, God does permit such things. Maybe the problem is that those who don’t believe a God of love would permit pain into their lives are using a different definition of love than God’s. The word for God’s love is a love that desires another’s highest good and, therefore, is not occupied with self at all. That is the kind of love God had for Job—and the kind He has for us. In spite of how bad it looked for Job, God really did desire Job’s highest good! And He does ours too!

Tuesday, April 1, 2014


101 Reasons the Adult Survivor of Child Abuse should SPEAK UP today!

1. Because Adults Survivors should not have to get through the trauma alone.
2. Survivors deserve support.
3. Adult Survivors of CSA are at risk for suicide – speaking up could save your life or even someone elses.
4. Reporting abuse could stop the abuser from abusing another child.
5. Tommorow is not promised.
6. When we are quiet about abuse we give the impression that abuse is not important – when we speak up we let others know that we have rights and deserve treatment.
7. To be free to live life on your own terms.
8. Because it is the right thing to do.
9. To get help for depression.
10. To allow other Survivors to help us.
11. Our country’s legal system owes the community to protect us from predators.
12. Children deserve to be safe in their homes.
13. Parents need resources to help deal with this issue.
14. When we talk to God we allow Him the opportunity to love and guide us through the pain.
15. No one’s pain should be ignored.
16. This is not a private issue – this is a public travesty.
17. To break the cycle of abuse.
18. To be free from guilt and shame – we have nothing to be ashamed about – we didn’t do anything wrong.
19. Survivors deserve to be happy.
20. Child Sexual Abuse is preventable.
21. Because the Survivor Today is worth the effort.
22. Families need support.
23. Spouses need to learn how to support Adult Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse.
24. Children of Adult Survivors of Child Sexual abuse need healthy parents.
25. Survivors must understand that the abuse is not their fault.
26. Survivors need to learn the truth about sexual abuse.
27. Hiding the abuse does not serve the well being of our community – it jeopardizes its future.
28. Abusers need to be held accountable for the damage caused to families.
29. Parents deserve the right to know if their child is being abused.
30. Churches have no right to protect abusers.
31. Children are not sex objects.
32. Children have rights.
33. To reduce cases of HIV.
34. To help hurting children, teens and adults that use drugs and alcohol to cope with the pain.
35. Those that are ashamed of this issue will not continue to silence those affected.
36. To get dental care.
37. To allow doctors to adequately treat Survivors.
38. So that research can affectively explain the crisis.
39. Because there are millions of children at risk.
40. Sex traffickers target children of child sexual abuse.
41. Talking about abuse includes talking to God through prayer – He cares and wants us to turn to Him.
42. Because mental diseases are just as important as any medical condition.
43. In honor of those that have died at the hands of their abusers.
44. Child sexual abuse is an epidemic.
45. If we don’t address this issue or talk about it then how can we deal with it?
46. Because we are more courageous than we think.
47. We can effectively deal with this issue if we choose to – so lets choose to.
48. No child deserves to be abused.
49. We owe it to our children to protect them.
50. Adult Survivors are an excellent resources for advocacy and prevention.
51. Left untreated the pain does not go away.
52. Because it matters.
53. If our country can be spend billions of dollars on entertainment and sports – surely we can spend some time and attention on this issue.
54. We need to talk to Congress so that the laws can be changed to protect children.
55. Its ridiculous not to – how much longer will we ignore the elephant in the room?
56. When we don’t talk about it – we send a strong message to abusers that its really ok and its not.
57. Because we can.
58. Silence is akin to being an accessory to the abuse.
59. Because I personally am mad as hell and refuse to be quiet any longer and you should be too.
60. Because we are supposed to talk about issues that matter to us.
61. Children aren’t always in a position to speak for themselves – they need adults to.
62. We have the time.
63. Adult Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse can only reach their true potential when they are free from the bondage of abuse.
64. The Survivor Today needs to get rid of the baggage the abuse gave to them.
65. Adult Survivors of Child Sexual abuse deserve to have a healthy sex life.
66. CSA can lower a child’s self esteem – children and adults need to hear that they are worthy, lovable and important. Our silence only confirms to survivors that they aren’t worth the effort.
67. Our voices have power – power to help children and adult survivors of CSA.
68. Because to speak out is to show love.
69. Because we care about each other.
70. People matter.
71. If we can advocate for humane treatment for animals then we can speak up about child abuse.
72. It is a horrible crime and an evil thing to stand by and watch a child be sexually abused.
73. People need to be told to report child abuse.
74. Child sexual abuse is a crime.
75. To treat depression.
76. Children are a blessing.
77. Survivors that have been blessed should be a blessing to others.
78. Survivors can relate well to another survivor.
79. Our story deserves to be told.
80. Adult Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse need to know from another Survivor that there is hope on the other side.
81. To save a Survivor from imprisonment.
82. To learn effective ways to deal with stress.
83. Survivors must learn how to maintain healthy relationships.
84. Because it is a reality.
85. We will make the world a better place for at least one other person.
86. To give hope to a hurting person.
87. To teach the medical profession how to treat survivors.
88. To let go of the past and move forward.
89. To tell your testimony and give Glory to God for helping you.
90. To stop that family member from molesting another person in your family.
91. Speaking up is a healthy habit and part of a healthy lifestyle.
92. To treat PTSD.
93. We need to warn parents.
94. To treat anorexia.
95. Because there is a child some where right now that needs you.
96. To provide support and direction to spouses, friends, parents and family members.
97. To tell parents that its not their fault.
98. The abusers need silence to continue to abuse – why not disarm them?
99. Because eventually the secrets will manifest in your life and the results could be extremely detrimental.
100. To gain inner peace.
101. To gain control and power over you own life – take the powe

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Siblings that pass away have special meaning to us. They are often close in age to us and their death may bring to mind our own mortality. Life is no longer taken for granted. Someone from our generation has passed away. If the death is unexpected, there may be loose ends in the relationship that have not been dealt with. It is common that a death of a sibling brings upon a search for meaning. We may ask ourselves if we are accomplishing the goals that we have set for ourselves.

We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday.
And days before that too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories.
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake.
With which we’ll never part.
God has you in his keeping.
We have you in our heart.

Friday, January 10, 2014

18 Layers Of Hell... 

Deanna was traumatized as young as 2yrs old to 16 by her father,step father,nieghborhood boy,babysitters and her mothers friends.She recalls 18 different rapes on her soul. Even overlaping of abusers at a time. you ask yourself how could this girl get victimized so many times? Well she was groomed for it. When you go through so much abuse you become someone else or in Deannas case she was "The woman" and not the girl when she was abused. This is why most abused children don't remember aspects of the abuse. there minds just block out the pain.When a child is a victim of abuse by a member of 

their family, their world has changed forever. They may have loved their abuser and the abuser has turned the relationship into something sadistic and cruel. The victim of abuse is likely to feel very confused. How can they sort out the feelings of affection that they have for their abuser with the sick and disgusting act that was done to them. Feelings that result from abuse should not be buried away. As painful as it is, victims must talk about their experience and share their pain with others. Finding meaning in suffering is the road to healing.

 " I have not fully forgiven her for her lack of her protection in my childhood years, and I hold a lot of anger toward her not believing me when she found out about my father.  I mean think about it she knew he was molesting me before the actual rape occurred.... if she had just stopped him from being alone with me.... just MAYBE?? Or even gave me some survival skills, such as... say NO and run!" Deanna asks herself How does one get over being sexually abused by 20 perpetrators? Raped at the age of 7 by her own father?   I don't know how without doing a lot of therapy! 

 Life after abuse...Deanna made her a drug addict,abuser of alchohol,shoplifter and a binger. she suffers from anxiety and panic attacks. but now she sees two therapists and have became clean and takes it one day at a time. She is a renewed child of God and sets boundries in her life. She is not "Road Kill". Deanna said the good news is that she is not the blame for her own demise but her abusers are solely to blame! no matter if the abuse wasn't violent and it felt good. God made the female body to love the person of her choosening and even though she didnt choose the man to take her precious gift from God. Her soul was still pure. The Devil can use this world to conflict pain on our bodies and even kill us but our souls are from God and it can never be taken.Even though she would mentually withdraw from the world but she was living in God.Abuse... It's something that is only too common in today's society.And is something that more people need to be aware of ... “There'a a phrase, "the elephant in the living room", which purports to describe what it's like to live with a drug addict, an alcoholic, an abuser. People outside such relationships will sometimes ask, "How could you let such a business go on for so many years? Didn't you see the elephant in the living room?" And it's so hard for anyone living in a more normal situation to understand the answer that comes closest to the truth; "I'm sorry, but it was there when I moved in. I didn't know it was an elephant; I thought it was part of the furniture." There comes an aha-moment for some folks - the lucky ones - when they suddenly recognize the difference.”

I have not fully forgiven her for her lack of her protection in my childhood years, and I hold a lot of anger toward her not believing me when she found out about my father.  I mean think about it she knew he was molesting me before the actual rape occurred.... if she had just stopped him from being alone with me.... just MAYBE?? Or even gave me some survival skills, such as... say NO and run! 
I asked Deanna questions to further our education on sexual,mental and verbal abuse.
~If you could give the world one piece of advice, what would it be?  Give it to GOD, it was the hardest lesson I ever had to learn, and understand, but when I did... boy did it ALL come together. She replied.
 If you could have a room full of any one thing, what would it be?  My children... they are the gift from God that gave me the strength I needed to heal.
What do you value most in other people? Their stories, their strength, and their happiness.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?  well first thing that comes to mind is my mother, I wish I could change who I was born too, but I cant she is mentally unstable and incapable of empathy or protection of her own children... I now know that I can never change that about her! or me.  I have to accept who my mother is, and accept that I can not change her.
If you could choose one of your personality traits to pass on to your children, what would it be? BE STRONG and NEVER GIVE UP!!! that is the personality trait I hope my children pick up from me.  my diligence and desire to know that NO MATTER WHAT!! WE HAVE TO KEEP GOING.
 What would you attempt if you knew you could not fail? Loving a REAL man, a leader, a godly man rather than a man looking to me mothered... the one thing I knew I could handle...
 Would you rather teach a young child to read or have to learn again for yourself?  teach!!! its what god put me on this earth to do
 What is the best advice you've ever given and received?  Given:  Get therapy, with a therapist of your faith!  Received: Give it to God
 Favorite song~ Brad Paisley, If i could change the world.

What is your biggest fear, except for spiders?  Death of a child, or failing one of my children.  My mother failed me as a child and as an adult. 
What are the most important 3 things in your life? Love (jesus, family, and friends)18.  Life - after 2 years of intense therapy life is so worth living!!  Laughter - so much joy in the world, without laughter it just wouldn't be worth it!
 what was the turning point to help you overcome your abuse?  she said therapy with a christian therapy once a week and group therapy once a week, all with GODS word intertwined.  I could NOT have done it without GODS LOVE, and finally realizing that god didnt do this to me, I was SO ANGRY at God for so long, for how could a loving God let and innocent child be molested by 19 perps and raped by her own father at the tender age of 7.  Once I realized that it was ONLY the lords love that could ever help me find the PEACE that I so needed.  It was evil & wicked men did this too me, SATAN!!
Only gods will and his love could heal such a traumatic trauma, thats what healed me... that helped me find the light to peace, love, and harmony.  I was so messed up for so many years.  I never thought Iwould ever be in this place to see that the lord loves me and would never put me in harms way.... the way I thought he did.  GOD LOVES ME!!! and I LOVE HIM and he has given me peace, harmony, and a chance at happiness by finding forgiveness.  Sounds crazy, forgiving this horrible pathetic evil perpetrators that harmed our innocent SOULS, but that is what gave me peace!
Deanna has come along way but the pain is still very real. As my self I know Deanna's pain also because I am a survivor! Gods Rehab means different things to different people but for me i'm not trapped in the dark anymore and God did that. Instead of drug rehab ect..to get help. I'm just letting go and let God.
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